Week 2 – What? The Personality Test Shows I Had a Personality Change

With The Master Key Experience, I had to take a personality test.  I have taken many of these tests since the late 80’s; I thought I totally knew my personality!  I mean, I work with numbers and I analyze EVERYTHING.  I think rules are there to be followed and followed to the letter.  It’s all black and white, there is no gray.  

I have always held people to a very high standard, especially myself.  My friend, Donna, told me that she would never want me to be her supervisor because I held myself to such high expectations and I expected others to meet those expectations too.  Everything has always been so serious.

By my senior year of high school, I knew that I was going to go to college and major in Accounting.  Then I would get out and work in that field.  I had everything figured out.  Up until that year I did not even want to go to college.  I just wanted to get married and have babies and work as a secretary, if I worked at all.  Implied in those last five words was that I would not work. I would have someone to provide for and take care of me so that I would not have to work.  In other words, I wanted to be my mother!

Well, by the end of my junior year I figured out that my plans needed to change.  My lofty goals were to get married and have babies, but I had never even dated anyone, much less had a serious boyfriend.  At the time I was taking an Accounting course and I liked it, so I applied to the local university to study Accounting.  And that, my friends, is how I made my career choice.

I loved going to the university even though the classes were hard for me.  The first Accounting course was a review and easy.  In three months, we covered everything we covered in my yearlong high school course.  The second quarter of Accounting covered everything I had covered in the second one.  Then the third Accounting course hit.  I hated it!!!  I wanted out, but I didn’t know what I wanted to do.  All my plans were thrown off.  

I could go into Early Childhood Education, but by that time I realized that I really didn’t want to be with kids all day.  I could go into Secretarial work, but I really didn’t want to do that either.  I had taken three Psychology courses and I loved them; they came natural for me.  I could actually see myself doing that, but my daddy told me he would not pay for that b******t.  He was so adamant about it that he filled in the complete word.  So, I stuck it out to finish college and got a job where I could “make a living, if I had to.”

What The Personality Test Showed

Back to this personality test.  You can imagine my shock when I scored as a YELLOW on the Color Code Personality Test.  According to the results of the test, “Yellows are motivated by Fun. They are inviting and embrace life as a party that they’re hosting.  They love playful interaction and can be extremely sociable.” 

YELLOW? You have got to be kidding me. That didn’t fit me.  I would not even date just to have fun; it had to lead back to that end goal of getting married and raising babies.  Social things wear me out and drain me to the core.  I just want my alone time to recharge my batteries that have gotten worn down from people.  I do recognize the fact that I have a hard time committing to finishing things.  I’m always great at starting, but not so much at finishing.   Also, when I feel that I master something, I am no longer interested in it. 

I have really been pondering the meaning of this personality test ever since I took it.  Some questions asked you to choose a trait that described you as a child and some ask you to answer as you would as a youth.  I knew that I had some major changes taking place in my childhood. 

You see, I had hip problems which started at age 9 and had to have surgery during the week of my 10^th birthday.  The surgery left me where I was no longer able to run, ride bikes, ride horses, jump on pogo sticks, etc.  Basically, I was not able to play as I had known it before. I was no longer able to do the things I loved to do.

Could that traumatic event really have changed my personality radically from a fun-loving, care-free girl to an overly cautious, deliberate youth and adult?  Is it possible to really change your personality so much that you don’t recognize the results as true for yourself?   Is that fun-loving, care-free girl still there just waiting to be recognized and let free or am I doomed to live a life of cautious deliberateness?  I really have more questions than answers here.  Hopefully this course will help me to see the truth.

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